How do you pretend to be happy when your not? How do you be nice and cheerful and outgoing when you feel like the air is eating away at your skin and you soul is rotting from the inside out? When you are reminded everyday of your shortcomings and how you've failed and no one can tell you what you do well or what your strong points are? How long can you keep going when all you can give anymore is indifference? Because you've given everything else and there is nothing else left and you've never gotten anything back except that same indifference. How long does this go on before everything rots away and there is nothing left, not even indifference?