sick...

i am sick of being angry at you all the time. i am sick of being angry all the time. i am sick of feeling like i have to apologize for the way i am. i am sick of hating myself. i am sick of hating my life. i am sick of being here and feeling like i can't leave. i am sick of feeling stuck. i am sick of always doing what everyone else thinks that i should do and then falling short of their expectations. i am sick of never being able to do what i want. i am sick of talking and having no one listen. i am sick of yearning for something that i can never have. i am sick of no one agreeing with or being supportive of what i want. i am sick of watching my life disappear. i am sick of always having to think about how other people feel. i am sick of always having to think about how what i do or say affects everyone else and no one thinking about how it affects me. i am sick of feeling hurt all the time. i am sick of being in pain. i am sick of everyone else's problems always being bigger and more and important than mine. i am sick of always having to deal with it because that's just the way things are. i am sick of just having to cope. i am sick of being alone. i am sick of you not ever being around. i am sick of searching for something i never seem to find. i am sick of not having a purpose. i am sick of not being able to do anything well. i am sick of no one understanding. i am sick of small talk. i am sick of thankless jobs. i am sick of feeling stupid. i am sick of being made an object of. i am sick of feeling empty all the time. i am sick of the cold. i am sick of my hair coming out in handfuls all the time. i am sick of not being able to relate to another person for even 5 minutes. i am sick of how easy it seems for everyone else. i am sick of working hard for something and it never being enough. i am sick of feeling like a stranger. i am sick of hating everything. i am sick of waiting. i am sick of everything being just beyond my reach. i am sick of being taunted by something better that i will never achieve. i am sick of being told how much harder everything is. i am sick of being told that the economy sucks. i am sick of settling. i am sick of making an effort that no one recognizes. i am sick of feeling alienated. i am sick of having nowhere to go. i am sick of being uncomfortable all the time. i am sick of being mediocre. i am sick of just wanting something else. i am sick of hearing what everyone else thinks that i should be doing. i am sick of having to be stressed out all the time. i am sick of feeling ugly and awkward. i am sick of not having anything to say. i am sick of feeling like my skin is crawling all the time. i am sick of being scared and paranoid. i am sick of being useless. i am sick of clothes and shoes that don't fit. i am sick of being unnoticed. i am sick of having to be there for everyone else when no one is ever there for me. i am sick of people bad mouthing cops. i am sick of everyone expecting me to change for them when they won't change for me. i am sick of plastic bags. i am sick of cracks in the wall and peeling paint. i am sick of not knowing what to do with myself. i am sick of things wearing out and not being able to replace them. i am sick of trying to fill a mold. i am sick of not wanting this life. i am sick of being sick of...